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Welcome to Katee's Site.  This is for all to remember our daughter and others like her who have died too soon.  Our Angel Left us January 24, 2002 from Interrupted SIDS.  So grab some tissues, and browse through my pages of Katee's life, death, SIDS  and Infant Loss information. 
 
Many Blessings and Hugs,
Lori Weakley

October is National Pregnancy,
Neonatal and Infant Loss month. 
Please remember those families who
are affected by this devastating loss.

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   Angel Baby has been gone 3 years now.
Mommy Misses you so much! 

Why did I feel the need to write this?  There were many reasons.  First, as I was doing research after Katee’s death, I found many books explaining what SIDS was or was not and how to attempt to prevent it, but I found few that actually talked about how it affected those left behind.  What happens to that family left to pick up the pieces of their shattered lives?  What happens to the siblings left behind too young to really understand grief?  And what happens to a small community left to deal with the tragedy of such a loss. 

I am not an expert. I do not have a doctorate after my name.  I have not been to school to specialize in anything that would qualify me as a professional of this or that.  What I am is a mother who thought she was untouchable.  A mother, who had 6 children, did her best to raise them and in a few brief moments had her entire world shattered by something no one can explain.  What I am now is a woman who is driven to help others suffering.  My goal is to make a meek attempt to show you what you are feeling as normal as any of this can be and to let you know no matter what or how you are feeling you are not alone. I will not tell you I know what you are feeling….because each of us grieves in our own unique way.  What I can say is I understand.    There are other’s of us out here, we are praying for you, and we do care! 

What is SIDS?  Sudden Infant Death Syndrome or “Crib Death” is the sudden unexplained death of an infant under the age of 1 year.  It is not a Diagnosis.  Instead it is elimination.  SIDS is determined after all other conditions have been ruled out and a full review of the scene has been done by police.  Then an autopsy must be performed.  After all this is said and done if there are still no answers then it is ruled SIDS.  So what is SIDS?  It is a medical unknown that sneaks into our homes steals our babies and leaves us empty

 

Friday September 20, 2004 would have been Katee's third birthday.  I miss her so much.  The pain is still very real but the intensity is not as strong.  It still hurts.  I still cry.  It's just that I am finally able to function on these days.  I can actually get up and shower.  I can go out in public and not cry at the sight of every baby.   It is still unbelievable that instead of presents, cake, family around the table takeing pictures and laughing we will be at her grave site.  This is so unfair!

Katee has been gone 3 years now.  I hurt I miss her so bad.  The intensity of the pain is not as strong as it has been in the past.  I still hurt but I am functioning.  Night time is still the worse.  I have flashbacks that are so real.  I can hear, feel, even smell everything from that horrible day that we found her.  I can still feel as I held her while life slipped from her body.  My arms ache to hold her, My heart aches for what should be.  I get so angry as I watch parents who are irresponsible with their toddlers.  I want to scream " Dont you know what a gift you have? "  Katee had her SIDS Eppisode on the Anniversary of Row-Vs-Wade.  How Irronic is that?  Here it is our nations biggest debate on what is LIFE.  And all I want is to have my baby back.  Days like this that life SUCKS!!!!!

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Globes by Pam


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